So, my first husb and gave me herpes. and I've been married for 14 years, and before that I was single for 11 years, and I never told. I just made sure that I never let anybody touch me when I had a sore. I never ever told anybody, but last night I told my husband. What would he think after all these years of me not telling?  All he did was ask me if it hurt. and what did I need. It's sad, just really sad. I spent all day drunk yet again. What the hell is wrong with me? and then got called out by my son. I did the laundry, I made dinner, I helped him replace the brakes on the car, and I got yelled at for being drunk. so what? and now I hate myself even more than I did before.